slow and steady

Since I have been out of the hospital, I have just been taking everything day by day, slow and steady. There have not been any major happenings...except for the start of the second half of the second course....hey, I gotta break it up as much as possible :) This course has still been extremely rough on my body. I have been extremely exhausted, had pains in my legs, had diarrhea, and I have had zero appetite. That has led to me often being unable to to hold down food because I keep trying to force food so that I can get my nutrition. All in all, it has been a challenge, but, in all honesty, I feel pretty good today and that is what matters right now. No need to dwell on the past, not enough time to worry about the future. Today I feel good and feel ready to use my own power to take steps to my own future.

The next big stepping stone is a meeting with Dr. Claxton on Monday. We will discuss the option of a transplant as well as the progress of my treatment. I am hoping to learn more about my path with this treatment and how he sees it going forward. I am anxious and hopeful that he will be happy with how the chemo is attacking the leukemia......hell, if it is knocking the cancer down like it is knocking me down, it will regret the day it set up shop in this marrow. This marrow is a battle zone and the fight will continue as long as it has to, even if I am weak and tired. I guess that's where you guys come in. In the end,

ALL will be well

"So damn easy to say that life's so hard, everybody's got their share of battle scars. As for me, I'd like to thank my lucky stars that I'm alive and well......" --Kenny Chesney and Dave Matthews

"Aim at Heaven and you will get earth thrown in; aim at earth and you will get neither" --C.S. Lewis